.........aids.........sexuality..........and.....adjustment.........

............this is a painful subject to a world that had just settled into a new time of interreactive sexuality and had begun to become comfortable with the freedoms allowed and maybe even a little sloppy we were so comfortable. Shame, isn't it? Just as we had overcome the foibled pathway of heavy duty religion...and the great psychosis of the public awareness we had been dealt by time, authority, philosophy and psychology, learned ourselves enough to say our morals were our own and we would deal the path the way we saw it and wear the consequences....here came the inevitable slap in the face of too much cake and ice cream....you know...the monkey see monkey do syndrome....the also unfortunate victims we all sensitive hurt for...the addictive oneness of pleasure....the adventure of I'll fix it and be careful next time....the booze won't make me careless, my feelings won't make me careless, etc....etc....now I have to worry I won't have a childish tantrum over the fact that 'God' or 'SOMEBODY', 'SOMETHING' DID THIS !!!!!!!!!!!!!! stuff.....how could anything destroy something so nice.......and crying all over the place. Panic is next. Just when I got used to 'that's just fine to be like that'....now I have to hear that...'no it ain't!'....Panic will eat you up til you tell it off then you have to deal with resentment, the blues, and depression and things like that. Loss is what it is. You lost the somewhat free expression of something you like. That's not nice. In fact it's downright mean of something. Maybe if you could figure out what it was you could blame it on something and feel better from this vague ambiguous hurt of lost sexuality without a replacement
Maybe you even measured yourself by it....maybe we all did. So what! That may have to be over now.
Well, on and on because for most people it was a comfortable habit that now if you want to survive must become an uncomfortable adjustment. I think it can be done. I know....who am I?????????????
Well, I know, I know, I thought all that too otherwise how could I write it here today. Whatever my niche, whatever my scope...I thought it too. I was mad...I got crazy....I didn't want my sex life adjusted by some possibly outwitting disease....all those things. Well. I managed to do it...I was able to come to terms with myself and my feelings and eventually make the adjustment I needed to make in life. It was very difficult no easy time one big lengthy struggle. Everything seems to be growth until you reach a plateau you can live with. Then if you can maintain that plateau, it may be possible to reach personal peace of a sort for awhile but as with anything else responsibility on all fronts and in all situations is very difficult to uphold constantly or consistently especially under the extremes of shock. It helps to have a daily philosophy to live by and a general philosophy with which to view the world tho I don't yet know what that is...that's also another personal responsibility....difficult isn't it? We are always led back to ourselves without much reliable guidance except our own thinking which takes time to develop. It is, however, for oneself, the best thing to do, is to try to think things out for oneself philosophically. Sometimes we can mend. I did.

blog world3.... August 9, 2005
the great eye watches................
since humanity first domesticated animals or maybe they domesticated themselves...the intelligent sensible human chose those that lent themselves to relatively little conflict....these remained willingly domesticated and still do follow that pattern today. What cat or dog doesn't love its owner and miss them while they are gone? Earlier in time brainless egotistical-type emperors chose to cage wild animals in an endeavor to prove their pomp to conquested nations (and their cruelty) and to those they wished to conquer (you think they didn't want to prove their cruelty to those they wished to conquer? You think they didn't wish to conquer?) By this time or knowledgeable era humanity is not supposed to be fighting large battles with its awareness over wildlife. Time has gradually been approaching that zoos and animal circuses will become and have been a thing of the past. Petting and viewing arenas of wild animals will become known as the childish tantrum that attempted to show supremacy over the wild and become extinct. Although the young may improve from the knowing of nature there are many ways to accomplish this that do not jeopardize the fauna of this beautiful planet. There are ways to slowly but steadily reduce the captive animals and strict laws even those of death should be definitely considered for taking new capture or breeding within capture in order to stop this vile permissive disease of wild animal enslavement to this big-headed human ego disease. Very strict death laws should become applied to those researching animals in the wild by any kind of tagging or radio tracking or similar means. All a wild animal has to stay alive and be happy and well-adjusted in its environment is its instincts and its sense of its familiar environment brought about by its own sensing of its system. These tracking systems diminish if not eliminate the animal or bird's ability to know its own space and that space around it it needs to stay safe. There are other ways than this of keeping track of fauna groups' movements. Those are approximate which is the only measure that should be allowed on this natural planet....approximate. That does not require drugging (nicely called sedating....which is wrong and actually should be a crime) in order to apply some wrong technique that is not necessary in the first place by someone who may be trying to make a large living in the wrong way and is not yet being stopped. Has the whole natural environment become runover by a stubborn group of sadists everyone is too afraid of to say anything?
1) Sedation of wild creatures by a fully licensed veterinarian qualified in its usage for medical reasons and 2) under certain circumstances strict governance of the procedure relegated only to qualified animal control officers to remove a wild creature from an area of domestic residence or city invasion by that wild creature back into the wild, are the only situations I can think of that would qualify anyone to use this sedation method on wild creatures and tracking devices not one reason can I think of for such a horrible and cruel invasion of any living creature at all. This makes not only the wild things but all of us only one step away from slaves every one.

'Watch how they treat the wild things for they are helpless and then you will know what they are....and if they treat them wrongly be careful for that is the first step they take....What then have they proven themselves to be....but sadists and the end of the human race'.......

In domestic animals...when breeding causes a problem or a breed shows vicious killing brutality like pit bulls have over and over....what healthy-minded society would not protect its residents....(that should tell us all something about our society) ...that breed should be banned....there's obviously something wrong in the mixing and it shouldn't be allowed....and it should be stopped by law....once a breed has killed again and again it should be the death penalty to continue to breed it or raise it...that will end the sick terrorism that has been allowed to infiltrate the society of the modern day...the authority is playing some heartwarm joke game on everyone pretending that it is heartfelt to allow the life and continued breeding of all breeds of animals regardless. This is an animal type that has killed humans viciously over and over again and it's a relativley new breed. How did that happen? I'll tell you how. These things of breeding new fear ones are studied by the crud to scare everyone except themselves. Then they make up a bunch of cliches or use the ones from before's mess they made for an excuse to live in a 'free america' and then if you say anything they start mouthing off with their excuses and cliches and several different types of people visit you, if you have complained or shown you don't like this, with a cliche factor that reads gradually like a story noone wanted to hear but the crud which is trying to scare everyone for their borderline criminal case they are trying to pursue that is their new one because the last one wasted everyone's time for years and years and didn't work either but they are too stupid or substanced wrongly to give up.

blog 3 to be cont'd.............the energy goes on.............

Sunday October 23, 2005 (continuing....).....

Why don't they give up and die from longterm defeat in the corner. They screw over the authorities with threats against their jobs and suits and go down to yell at dignified places which are by virtue of their authority supposed to take all complaints even yelling ones by known liars into due consideration by law and unfortunately have to apply time and effort to this and these jerks know that. The authorities who have to uphold the going law (did you know that) even if it is known to be wrong (even if it is in process of being changed) (isn't that stupid and has caused many a heartache). Anyway the biggest mess problem one is the farce that every animal deserves to live, every breed...anyway that's a trash that can go on forever until it gets annoying enough to call the police which sometimes has to be done...when the authorities have to quote you every animal has the right to live in the case of viciously behaving dogs or start treating you rudely concerning your dislike of pit bulls or insisting you call them something fancy like staffordshire terrier then that should show you the authorities are wrongly in office and better ones should be sought....never should the human safety be compromised for the existence of a domesticated animal or a wild animal.
We have plenty of tried and true breeds, why are we doing relatively new freak stuff. Spitzes should be removed too they are freaked nervous systems and can climb fences and chew you up and the little rats don't stop with one bite either....best to ban a vicious breed....there are millions of breeds...if a society truly cared about its inhabitants it would not harbor vicious domesticated animals....our society is very sick.....
The animal regulation system should be changed. It should be allowed the law jurisdiction over animals as far as regular situations but as soon as the situation becomes an attack or a killing or a jeopardizing of humans such as wrong sick people putting their dogs deliberately into someone else's yard or letting their dog loose when the person takes their dog for a walk, then the police should be able to take over the 'case' by law and that is because the animal authorities laws are very surface and small. They are mostly impotent and time wasting especially in the case of the borderline criminal problem that is trying to push its weight around and is stubborn and drunk on 'something' most of the time and so believes unreally....Just cause it concerns animals doesn't mean the law structure has to be flimsy, obtuse or permissive to borderline criminals who deliberately use their dangerous animals to jeopardize the decent behaving people in society.
We have so much terrorism and closed up strictly monitored conditions now threatening the freedom we once knew not to return and much of that has come from these fools of borderline criminals who thought they could cause accidents deliberately and threaten people with their dogs and other things and get away with it. Wouldn't be the first time a 'fool's' or 'drunk's' system caused the crumbling of a society or imprisonment of it within itself. Once society becomes imprisoned within itself it is not long before it crumbles. True freedom is the only method that creates happiness and that is built on honor, ethics and human understanding and a willingness for all contained within that free society to cooperate with the principles.
We began to imprison and enslave the wild animals, track them with devices that keep them from themselves...is it any wonder that we are slowly becoming imprisoned ourselves within the factors of our own controlled space? We don't admire the natural human system, we don't even know it exists. That's obvious...watch tv and all the dangerous sadistic so-called 'beauty' methods. I have tried to tell 'you' many times in my life, 'society' in many ways....going to try here to apprise you one more time. If you defile the laws of nature, those laws will back up on you and show you what they are.....
A society of freedom does not mean a permissive society where everything is allowed. Those things that directly threaten freedom cannot be allowed that's obvious to someone intelligent but it took years for that to be understood and I think I was one of those who had to help explain it...very annoying...and it's always the dummies that are the loudest and try to harm you the most and are the most stubborn....should have been stopped by law a long time ago....freedom is not freedom generally for people especially in large amounts unless it is properly controlled through the law to produce those freedoms for those masses and individuals...people in mass and individuals do not just have 'rights' any way they feel like....which is unfortunately a big problem and a mess....knowing this because I live out there amongst it and have done so for many years....
it was time to say it whether you like it or not.....

"For all we live in it we have never included it within our respect for itself...the universe and the space of earth'

....the energy goes on.....

(c)

the sky watched by time.........
space ought to be off limits...the stars ought to be off limits........airplanes ought to dump their junk when they get to the airport not in the sky....humanity ought to get some respect for their situation and the mess they are making....since mankind canot even interr(e)act with itself wholesomely or the only environment it can find any hope to eke nourishment and shelter from, it ought to mention this to itself and wake up....why is mankind rocking its boat....is it thrilling itself?...a thrill is only as good as the ability to be able to stay alive within it or it's a suicidal attempt not a thrill and if you're going to commit suicide then don't threaten my necessary environment. Make the sky and space a wilderness (except for necessary air flights) and the stars as part of it hands off ....no people's, events, or place's names...the major planets named the way they are, no real estate outside of earth. What you've done humanity, including the space program, is shameful and disgusting and that's all nations who participated at anytime during this mess that's been made. That may be why there are bad problems all over the world right now and that may continue but I'm not going to explain why until you fix this problem....then I may if I think the problem won't come back. There should in fact be stiff stiff fines for any space flight etc attempts by any nation or any attempts to name a star privately or buy real estate in space or beyond the earth surface. If that doesn't stop it use the death sentence, that will. This can be dealt with by the United Nations or a board set up by all nations to claim anything beyond the earth's surface as wilderness in order to protect humanity now and in the future from the unethical. For mentioning this here in the beginning I would like to be known as one of the people of influence in this important regard that helped make the atmosphere beyond the earth surface and the continuing atmospheres into the universe off limits as a wilderness and a respected factor within humanity's existence. Anything attempted above and beyond the earth bubble or even above the earth's surface other than necessary air flight is just a childish prank by retarded humans who have somehow gotten themselves into an influential position, same junky individuals who attempted the forests and the earth wildernesses who had to be stopped by law, brusque, cliche, speedily moving people who don't give you room or time to get the right thing done, take it for granted people who have to be told no and stopped by law. Anyone sensible and intelligent knows you must keep the environment you need for survival safe and as whole as you can or...well you figure out the logarithm then maybe that's why they're up there jeopardizing everyone and laughing saying isn't this terrific don't you admire me when we should be saying I don't want mankind to be a race of fools and madmen. Every time I see this farce enacting and people okaying it with handshakes and baloney I think about the old folk story 'the king's new clothes'. If noone found that for you as a kid and passed it on then that may be the big 'fool you' done this american public, maybe even the whole world. I'm just glad I'm old and independent enough to be able to stand up and say something's wrong....are the kids in school allowed to say anything other than I think this is ok? and that's any age primary to university? is any one adult or more saying I don't like this other than me? What happened to thinking? Did you give up?????????? Since when in a country of freedom does the government get to make a lot of changes that are threatening to the atmospheres the masses have to live inside of and breathe. (This part is scarey I've been saying it since I was 15.) The government is supposed to keep the people safe not go lolligagging or gallivanting off into space just cause they feel like it. Are we suddenly over twenty years afraid of the authority? It's supposed to be looking after the public interest isn't it? Where's the public interest here, in its money pocket forgetting it needs air to breathe from a basically unchanged atmospheric environment? I don't know how to tell you how wrong you are to do this...you should have known it yourself. It's called in tune with yourself and the space you need to survive and exist (called environment). How do you get it stopped? You have to pass laws making these spaces into wildernesses and protecting them like was done for the earth planet spaces. Then you have to create jobs to maintain those laws which would actually create work and monies for many people. Someone's always complaining about not enough jobs...also how about not enough worthwhile jobs??? The monies that would have gone to the space programs could be used to pay for the jobs and sell hats and jackets and other clothing and mugs to fund protecting that valued environment (there is an environment beyond earth, you know). All monies would go for job pay within a reasonable wage not irresponsible pay and no immature baiting of contests and shoddy things like that. Build respect carefully especially for something that important. All these original ideas are mine...they belong to me and they can be used but I expect to be mentioned as part of the system beginning. I love the Earth and the Universe...over the next few months you will see how much but for now you can read it here. If you can do anything or you are doing anything please let me know at babafyre@witchmail.zzn.com. If everything (all the setting up and stuff) is going to be done for free from the beginning except the jobs after the laws pass, then I will give my ideas (with written permission only) written here freely into the endeavor however my name will have to be listed as one of the founders as my ideas written in this article here are my own original work and words and for all I have seen in my 62 years of life so far....for that which is given freely there is always some creep who crawls in and ruins everything. This then is my way of preventing that.
'For all we live in it we have never included it within our respect for itself....the universe and the space of earth' (c)

.......the energy goes on...........

dear time..........
you have passed for so long obviously unjudging, otherwise you would have done something........watching humanity as its general activities spun endlessly into residues of so-called 'good' and 'evil' which actually means.... did it survive its behavior and its behaviorism habits each time it decided to do something and maintain it?..... you have noticed, I am sure, unceasing decisions culminating in temporary happiness and temporary despair......... have you noticed whether we have learned from history....can you tell me, time, where that is...I'm trying to find it....somewhere....before the crying starts again all over the place.........I'll look til tomorrow and when I come back here I'll see if I can find it..........see if I can find it.............should be simple...........humanity learned from its historic mistakes.............just like they expect their children to learn.........and so on.........

dear cars..........
i like you in gasoline and small electric that runaround small communities...........dear bigger than that electric cars you are dangerous and you know it...you are a buzz noise that bothers the sensitive human electrical system and you are a harbinger of a messy electronic beam junk that could be nothing but an unhealable problem for mankind in the future....you are also some people with money trying to get rich...and you have a lot of nasty excuses and a bad temper..............
dear monsters of hybrid determination(cars)..........i don't like you........i think you ought to be junked as another deadly folly of another stupid brain.......i think the test that includes time and use is another foil to a tyrant changing world which will suck up the money blood of americans and pour it into the vampiric pocket of some werewolf who only cares about himself....... 'hybrid' can only mean poverty for those who can't change into it or don't want to......'hybrid' may mean an atmospheric flame bomb in an accident or emission conflict that cannot be put out.......'hybrid' isn't natural in flowers and leads away from the basic which we are and need............'hybrid' isn't natural in fuels and the vehicles are not accomodating as we are used to in those we have now, gasoline cars....once they start accepting these sick things we may all be forced to change....this will rot the money stability threads of the national maybe even the world community just for some baloney excuse that isn't true for some jerks that lie about everything and might have a big money interest in it.......as an older person i have seen a lot of stupid government authority changes within society which were said to be needed but were just a bunch of farces and this is the same junk...farces by junk money.........best way to fight the coming mess is to not participate with this 'new' test 'hybrid' car mess...........say no and then you won't cry later..........like all the old cities of time that died............you have to stand up and see who the crud is and who the good is...............when you say 'no' it shows itself................one of the evils of today......the 'hybrid' car and those who fostered the 'bill' for the 'reward' for using it ...what is that, bribery....what does 'bill' mean.... something we all have to pay like it or not?........and why are they offering a 'reward' to use it?.....is it death's incentive money in your pocket no matter who dies from the changes or the emission combinations...what are they gonna say ten years from now....weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelllllllll.....since you now haven't said no effectively enough to this crud car 'hybrid' you have to get rid of all the other type cars because the emissions don't mix..............get a guarantee on changes at least first but actually time and history's mistakes say no to the 'hybrid' car forever with a guarantee that will stop using it to try to blow us all up...............didn't we say no enough by not purchasing it in the first place...why can't the senate take no for an answer from the people who have to use or not use the product why aren't they in jail for trying to larceny the public....what is this communist china already before they asked...do you actually think they are going to ask if it's going to be communist china....wake up america it's supposed to be a beautiful day....guaranteed for the future ...not a nazi day as a surprise all of a sudden............
*(c)